as i've mentioned, our family, friends, and the body of Christ have come up along side us through this process. needs have been met, most of these needs are met even before we even know that we have a need.
that's just how good God is. we are often in awe because of the goodness and love He shows us.
every day i am excited to see what He is going to do that day because i know something will happen that is totally unexpected - it's happened every day for the past 39 days.
every day since cancer entered our home.
i hesitate to mention or publicly thank people by name for a few reasons.
first, their reward is in heaven. i believe people are coming along side of us because He has placed it on their hearts, not because they want a public thank you.
second, we are blessed with a lot of people doing things for us - some we know of; others we will never know on this side of heaven. (by the way, anonymous things both bless me and drive me crazy, i want to know who was here!! yet, my heart is full every time!)
third, there are too many people to mention and i don't want to miss anyone.
fourth, many people are praying. some wake up at 3am to pray and some even stay up all night to pray, and there are people we don't know who have heard of my beloved and they are praying. all of the prayer is invaluable.
finally, the reward is in heaven.
having said that, there is one thing.
one very big thing.
dinner.
in the very beginning, a friend came to me and said dinners have been set up through the next month. past tense. as in it was already done and there was no need in arguing.
i didn't realize at that moment what a huge blessing that would be.
with cancer comes changes.
one immediate, specific change we made was eating.
sugar feeds cancer so that was cut out right away. matt needs nutrition, vitamins, and whole foods. what he eats, needs to count, especially because he doesn't always feel like eating and weight loss and dehydration, we've learned, are a huge risk.
anyone who knows me knows i am not the best cook. i do pride myself in being the processed food queen. but then who doesn't feed their family things that are quick, easy and convenient?
it's 2013. we're busy. we eat on the go.
this eating right thing is all new to me.
we started shopping at trader joes and in that tiny little store, i'll admit, i was lost. it's a good thing that people are bringing dinner because if it was up to me, we'd all die. but not from cancer, it would be starvation that would kill us.
the obvious reason it was a blessing to have dinners brought to us was so i wouldn't have to prepare dinner. (duh, right?) it helps us with time. suddenly our lives have become very busy with phone calls, doctor appointments, various treatments, church, working, running kids everywhere and the list goes on and on.
what i didn't realize that the mental part of dinner was also removed. i no longer had to think about what to make. or if i had everything on hand. not to mention, wondering if is it even good for matt to eat.
another huge blessing is that i'm learning that we can eat healthy using "normal" foods that we love. it just doesn't have to be fried or paired with something unhealthy on the side. this has been an amazing eye opening experience.
we are thankful.
i've noticed that the smoke alarm hasn't encouraged me with the jarrett anthem in 39 days!
and just yesterday at the table, we were eating dinner that had just been brought over and the conversation went like this:
taylor: this is so good mom!
me: yes it is. i think i'm going to cry the day i have to start cooking again.
levi: me too mom, me too.
me: ................
*as a side note, i've since been told that we won't cook until this thing is over. i only know who is organizing this but i'm not sure who has been contacted or who has offered to bring us dinner, but if you are part of this, thank you from the bottom of our very full hearts.
meal train for the jarretts
once again, God is so good.
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